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[09 Mar 2005|12:07am]
add me to your friends
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[18 Jan 2005|09:50pm]

its back... anyone who cares, check it out
and its not friends only, so you can all read it
and comment on it
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[09 Sep 2004|01:24am]
its where its at. i never use this one anymore :'(
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[21 Aug 2004|12:14am]
new friends only... youllbeamemoryy
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[20 Aug 2004|04:48pm]
guess who got a new hair cut...
Comments: 4 battle fields inside my mind It all comes to these words.

[19 Aug 2004|11:25pm]
i found love in you
i find truth in you
i see light in you
and it horrifies me
Comments: 2 battle fields inside my mind It all comes to these words.

[17 Aug 2004|02:37am]

a) keep growing it all
b) cut the sides and back
c) bring it back old school all on length
d) short all around little extra in the middle
e) short all around little extra in the front
f) mix of d and e

we need to hang out. just in case you didn't know. i leave for college in a week. yippie... goodbye.
Comments: 6 battle fields inside my mind It all comes to these words.

so cruel the way love tends to be [15 Aug 2004|12:45am]
i work
sun 11-7:30
tues 3-10:30
thur 5-10:30

does anyone want to hang out? pick a time because my sched is WIDE open. and i am always so bored. and does anyone want to go to lunch with me on those days i do work. sun lunch at 3ish, tues lunch round 7 and thurs lunch round 7. let me know kids.
Comments: 2 battle fields inside my mind It all comes to these words.

[14 Aug 2004|05:05am]
today = good

yeah it only cause its friday the 13th.
10:45 wake up to alan ringing the doorbell. go to the park and play some bball kids. school the other team and take a break in the sprinklers with my boys. then some wiffleball. o hellz yeah. get down 5-2 then come back for the 11-7 win. yeah, we ballahz. then china buffet with roux. get my eat on. fo show. then come home and rock out in the shower before heading of to work. work til 11. get out on time? o no way! craziness. then got to jakes house for a night of fun and excitment. yeah. i wish i hung out with jake more tho. i miss hanging out with him. and everyone else there although they barely knew i was there. o wellz. come home, and type then fall asleep. thats how we pimps play. pop a collah. then wake up and go see alien vs preditor with roux and s curlz. yes-er-e-bob! then grad party at 5 with the fam, and then kids stopping by late for alf, poker and pool? your welcomed? ok, sounds like a plan bitches.

ps. if u don't know me and for some reason just starting to read my journal for the first time, i am not a gangstah. so brush ya shouldahs off.
Comments: 1 battle field inside my mind It all comes to these words.

[12 Aug 2004|11:29pm]
alf on dvd? i may never leave the house again!
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[28 Jul 2004|11:10pm]
i've had fun the past week. went up to canada with alan, my brother and some of his friends. stayed up in montreal and just went out to the club. it was lots of fun. so many beautiful women and yet i couldn't take my mind off youuu. came home on sunday and played some cards which was fun. lost 5 bucks but whatever. worked monday and tuesday. woke up wed and saw bourne supremacy, with alan matt and jay, which was good. i got in for free because i bought the movie and it came with a ticket stub. then came home and played cards with the kids. i won. forty seven dollars. o yeah! it was nice. now to sleep.

lawns in the morning, work at 5 til 10:30. visits are more than welcome. say around 7 so we can go to lunch together?
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This is the moment that we all live for... are you ready? [19 Jul 2004|11:07pm]
listing to my heart and writing you a letter. underoath helped a little...

I feel like dripping it dry tonight
Over and over again
It's time to open up the door

i know i'm not perfect but just give me a chance. we could have something and i dont want to let that past by. i know u can't change what your heart is telling u to feel, but neither can i. i will always be here for u. and i hope u don't think of me as one of those guys that tells u they'll treat good and wont do what guys before have. i will treat u like your everything. cause you are. ever since those days when i would visit u on my lunch breaks back in january i just can't get u out of my head. i couldn't treat u like those other guys. i've seen what they've done and ur to good for that. u deserve so much more, more than me, more than him. yet i would like to try to be there for u. whenever we hang out its like the world stops. i can't even breath. i can't even blink because i wouldn't want to miss ur smile. ur just looking into ur eyes. telling jokes and just being us. i've never felt this way and i never want to feel any other way. its like everything else doesn't matter. who cares, the world could end but as long as i'm looking at you i wouldn't even be able to notice the flames. if nothing else, i always want to be your friend. thats y i didn't tell you how i felt earlier because i didn't want to fuck that up but then i relized that i couldn't take the chance of not being with you. you do what you want. i just had to let you know how important u are to me and how i feel. the balls in your court, although u prolly don't care much. you make what you want with it. just don't end our friendship. u mean too much for me to lose you and your one of my best friends. no joking. ive told u things i couldn't tell anyone else. give it some thought though. the world wasn't made in a day. i've already waited this long, i can wait a little longer...

Everything is out of reach...
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[15 Jul 2004|11:03pm]
i don't want to be just another fish in the ocean...

i'll tell you all about it later. its a good story some of you know. i'll prolly never post it but whatever doesn't really matter. i will never be able to tell the one i want to the most... there will always be a place for youuu in my heart, youuu just will prolly never find out. i will regret what we could have been. youuu are perfect.
Comments: 3 battle fields inside my mind It all comes to these words.

[15 Jul 2004|12:24am]
hang out with me saturday... i dare ya.

who will except the challenge?

no one ever does...
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[14 Jul 2004|01:46am]
So lets not even try...you're right

Here is where we both go wrong
Tonight's your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to

Crack a smile just for the sake of it

can you feel it it takes your breath away

So kiss me one last time

im on my way to the top of the world,
and i've got a feeling i'll give it away

I feel like cutting it open tonight

this is what i get for wanting more
for wanting more

Hey unloving

I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.

each line taken from a underoath song, in order.
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[12 Jul 2004|11:30pm]
last few days were good. saturday hung out with liz for a while in micheals then went to subway on her lunch. it was a good time. then i came home and hung with alan. played a little fris. then we went to see fahrenheit 911. we call like everyone but must didn't pick up or couldn't go. so we met up with danny t, zabcar, wiggins and jknob. then sunday worked til after 7 with will which was cool. it was pretty slow til the end. then left and came home. was suposed to hang out with sarah and alan but no go on that. so me and alan called some kids to play fris. we played a little basketball while waiting and jed came over then ameen. we watched street fights with my bro and his friends then it was off to the parking lot infront of best buy. i got to drive roux car and i actully hit 90 in it! then me, roux, drew, calvin and wiggins take on ameen, jknob, hallway and jed. we played for a while and then went to mcd's. we asked for free water and i got a free coke. and the lady was awesome and gave us a bag of free apple pies. and a large fry. it was good. then me roux and ameen came home and played some poker til like 3am. then we watched some fast and the furious because i love that movie. and i tried to get some plans to hangout with steph and ashley and ameen for monday. monday came and i sleep like all day. went to best buy to pick up ghetto brawls and saw dave and josh and we went to my house to put in a cd player into joshes car. then we went to joes in downtown cause my plan to hang out with ashley and steph fell thru :(. i got to see sam and sarah and kim. i did get a free piece of pizza which was good. then went to bull moose and bought a cd for 1.97. its stalemate. ? yeah have no clue either. o well. and now i'm talking to ashley, which is cool. i wish we could of hung out. she seems like a really cool person and i want to get to know her better. well for now, i need to go clean the basement.

and ladies, please. fill out the survey below.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...erotic
Your hugs are...warm
Your eyes...sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...irresistable
Your smell is...amazing
Your smile is...like no other
Your love is...one of a kind
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[07 Jul 2004|09:23pm]
here ya go. find out if you and i are made for each other. add your score and post them...

likes music +2 pts, if you like atreyu, norma jean or the bled +3 pts
likes the winter +3 pts
likes cars +2 pts
knows what a WRX is +1 pt
has blonde hair +1 pt
has brown hair +1 pt
has red hair +1 pt
knows who dane cook is +2 pts
knows every word to his dvd +2 pts
likes to go to best buy just cause i work there +1 pt
likes to go to shows +2 pts
likes to just stay in and eat wendys (fast food is acceptible) +2 pts
likes to get dressed up and go out to olive garden +2 pts
can drive +2 pts
lives within a 50 miles radius of dover +1 pt, if you live in dover +2pts
likes to go online +1 pt
doesn't like the phone +2 pts
likes to watch lots of movies +2 pts
knows the telephone number to dominos by heart +2 pts
has saturdays off +2 pts
has wednesdays off +2 pts, extra point (+1) if you have saturdays off too.
friends with me +1 pt
likes the movie dumb and dumber or tommy boy +2 pts
likes to cook +1 pt
likes to be cooked for +1 pt
likes to snowboard +2 pts
likes to snowmobile +2 pts
likes to play hockey or skate +2 pts
doesn't smoke +5 pts
friends with at least three of my friends +2 pts
knows my birthday or middle name +3 pts

count up your score out of a total of 60 points.
make sure to post your name and score.
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[05 Jul 2004|08:45pm]
i saw spiderman 2 today with my bro and his friends... it wasn't to bad. not to good either. but they had this whole thing talking about love and how spiderman can't tell m.j. he loves her and stuff and it made me think. it sucks to be in love and not be able to tell the one you love that you do truely love them. i want to tell youuu so bad. i just wish i could know how youuu feel before i open my heart.
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[03 Jul 2004|12:39am]
yesturday was good times. day off, finally. woke up around 11 and then went to the buy for my check and then shaws with the bro and grams. got some food and came home. called alan about frisbee and went to the china buffet. waited for hildo, bought a fris and got to the field. played with trav, dmac and jed, vs mike, hildo alan and mike w. sophie watched. then played some pick up with alan against mike and trav. then came home, watched some tv and had sophie whit and trav stop by. then jake and chelsea. then we all watch eurotrip then left to go to wendys. ate and mike showed up. then we went to some place in newmarket to go swimming. it was really fun. i had an amazing time but it kinda stinks because i relized that i never get called by them anymore to do stuff. and its said because it seems like they don't want me around.
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[28 Jun 2004|01:46am]
this could give it away but...

there is nothing you could do to change how i feel about you...
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